Call My Name

Call my name, no one will answer
I’m too far away, lost in my thoughts.
Look at me, I’m a disaster
I cannot find what I have sought.
All these years,
I’ve been looking for nothing.
It’s something I’ve always feared
So I lay here, alone, suffering.
I’ve been trying to catch the wind
With nothing but my own hands.
So what now is there left to find?
In this ocean, there’s no sight of land.
How many years has it been?
Since that day that changed my life.
This river of my life has no bend
And my heart has never soared like a kite.
It seems my life is going downhill.
It gets worse, and never better.
I think it’s time to write my will,
And hope someone finds this letter.

1/31/05