The beach didn't do me any good
I'm sorry I haven't posted really any new poems (oh by the way, "Fear" was written December 2004, and i like it as my motto kinda. It's cool, I like it) I went to the beach on Sunday (Lincoln City and back in ONE day) At first I was like "Yay!! Inspriation!!!" Well, my friends know I get motion sick REALLY easy, I had to take this less drowsy formula of Dramanine (I just can NOT spell today, first constitution *looks at spelling* OH MAN!! I friggin forgot that "T" and Steph already colored it! Today's not my day! First I spell it "constution" then the sub tells me i spelled it wrong so I changed it to "constiution")
Anyways, that stuff just doesnt like me. The trip there was ok. I was listening to my CD the whole time (Slipknot) as my 21 year-old bro was listening to his some of the time (Kylie Minogue *dont ask*), cause he also had to read a lot since he's in college since he changed his major from Engineering to English (dont ask why). So, when we got there, I stood in the sand, letting the wind blow my hair behind me and in my face. My bro was complaining it was too cold (he always wears shorts, even in the winter *don't ask*) so he and my mom sat on a big log by the concrete wall. My dad was standing near them. I was watching this guy in a tank top and shorts (its like around 40 degrees) skip rocks. I saw this rock in the sand that looked (to me) like a skull I showed it to my mom and she and my bro couldn't see it, so i threw it in the ocean.
Then, me and my family went on a sort of walk on the beach. We got so far, when my bro wanted to learn how to skip rocks (me not surprised) so my mom and dad both showed us how to do it (kinda). So we skipped rocks and continued skipping rocks when we couldn't find anymore flat rocks. But we did find this hotspot. we were in that spot for an hour it seems, and we didn't run out. I can't remember what Matt's best skip was, but mine was 6 bounces with this heart shaped rock. later, I found it again, and got 6 again. Then, the next time I found it, it went really far and did only 2 bounces. i didn't find it again, cause the tide was really coming in. We stopped skipping rocks when me and Matt ran out of energy.
After that, we went to the outlet mall place, and I got this two-scoop ice cream cone with chocolate truffle cake ice cream. YUM!!! I looooovee chocolate. That was the BEST ice cream I've ever tasted! YUM! Even a guy came past me and asked where I got it cause it looked really good. Sad, I got full before I finished it. After that, we drove around, looking for houses that my mom rented for sister's weekend, and also the beach house my aunt and uncle owned (we couldn't find it.... no address could we find). During that, the dramamine (or whatever) was making me nodd off a bit. Now, I don't like it when that happens, so I grabbed a Coke for caffine (i felt the effect for about 45 min. then it wore off). I'm one of those people that can get really hyper with enough sugar and caffine, and goes down slowly, so I just did not like this effect I was getting. I couldn't sleep cause we just HAD to take the truck (my dad loves it to much) and there is just SO little space for the people in the cab. My bro's a lot bigger than me, and sitting behind my mom, he gets more leg space. Oh, geez, I remember going to Spokane in that thing. That was a NIGHTMARE!!! But, of course we had to, since the SUV was acting all weird and stuff. It was sooooo friggin' hot! At Leavensworth, WA which is in the cascade mountain range, it was 102 degrees. I'm not kidding! I was dying!
So, I couldn't sleep since I can't really even find a comfortable position to just relax. So I was really miserable. The sun set when we were going over the bridge from Oregon to Washington (I remember that cause it was all blood red and I said "Look at the sunset" and then a second later, my mom saw the sky and said "Look at that" me: "I just said that. Nobody listens to me...") Then when we FINALLY got home, I headed straight for my room and went to bed, even though it was like 6:30-7:30... So that's a day in my life, or at least when we're traveling (which we do a lot, my dad doesn't like being cooped up in the house, but apparently in a car...... hmmm....)
My upper right arm aches, lower left back, inner right thigh are sore from the rock skipping. I haven't been really creative lately. I wasn't really inspired by the beach, since I go there quite a bit. But I've been in this kind of mood. I don't feel like doing anything. I'm not doing much on the internet except playing games. Not really doing homework (it's not really very important and there's not much at all, and I believe I have all A's right now, so I don't care right now) and I keep forgetting stuff. I get lost in my thoughts alot, and I just listen to music all day, do something on my computer, and watch a bit of TV now and then. On Saturday, and found really good to just stand outside, listening to music with the wind blowing and cats that stay near me that I can pet (I love cats for that. They seem to sense when you're down and comfort you). I'm not really depressed, I know what that feels like. It's weird, this morning I felt this way, then I was like in heaven yet still felt like this (kinda like how I feel now with my heart lifted) My friends can figure out right off the bat why I felt this way (Brittni knows, for sure). Then school was over, and my mood went back down again. I'm getting like depressed as I write this. I think I'll stop now. Oh, and I have like 3 or 4 poems that are just waiting for me to finish. It just comes in my head and I put it down. I think My Shadow is as good as it could get (lol, wrote it all on the bus. The bus seems to be the best place to write poems, even if a former classmate from Russia is trying to figure out what you're doing, like a journal or a note to name a few)
Anyways, that stuff just doesnt like me. The trip there was ok. I was listening to my CD the whole time (Slipknot) as my 21 year-old bro was listening to his some of the time (Kylie Minogue *dont ask*), cause he also had to read a lot since he's in college since he changed his major from Engineering to English (dont ask why). So, when we got there, I stood in the sand, letting the wind blow my hair behind me and in my face. My bro was complaining it was too cold (he always wears shorts, even in the winter *don't ask*) so he and my mom sat on a big log by the concrete wall. My dad was standing near them. I was watching this guy in a tank top and shorts (its like around 40 degrees) skip rocks. I saw this rock in the sand that looked (to me) like a skull I showed it to my mom and she and my bro couldn't see it, so i threw it in the ocean.
Then, me and my family went on a sort of walk on the beach. We got so far, when my bro wanted to learn how to skip rocks (me not surprised) so my mom and dad both showed us how to do it (kinda). So we skipped rocks and continued skipping rocks when we couldn't find anymore flat rocks. But we did find this hotspot. we were in that spot for an hour it seems, and we didn't run out. I can't remember what Matt's best skip was, but mine was 6 bounces with this heart shaped rock. later, I found it again, and got 6 again. Then, the next time I found it, it went really far and did only 2 bounces. i didn't find it again, cause the tide was really coming in. We stopped skipping rocks when me and Matt ran out of energy.
After that, we went to the outlet mall place, and I got this two-scoop ice cream cone with chocolate truffle cake ice cream. YUM!!! I looooovee chocolate. That was the BEST ice cream I've ever tasted! YUM! Even a guy came past me and asked where I got it cause it looked really good. Sad, I got full before I finished it. After that, we drove around, looking for houses that my mom rented for sister's weekend, and also the beach house my aunt and uncle owned (we couldn't find it.... no address could we find). During that, the dramamine (or whatever) was making me nodd off a bit. Now, I don't like it when that happens, so I grabbed a Coke for caffine (i felt the effect for about 45 min. then it wore off). I'm one of those people that can get really hyper with enough sugar and caffine, and goes down slowly, so I just did not like this effect I was getting. I couldn't sleep cause we just HAD to take the truck (my dad loves it to much) and there is just SO little space for the people in the cab. My bro's a lot bigger than me, and sitting behind my mom, he gets more leg space. Oh, geez, I remember going to Spokane in that thing. That was a NIGHTMARE!!! But, of course we had to, since the SUV was acting all weird and stuff. It was sooooo friggin' hot! At Leavensworth, WA which is in the cascade mountain range, it was 102 degrees. I'm not kidding! I was dying!
So, I couldn't sleep since I can't really even find a comfortable position to just relax. So I was really miserable. The sun set when we were going over the bridge from Oregon to Washington (I remember that cause it was all blood red and I said "Look at the sunset" and then a second later, my mom saw the sky and said "Look at that" me: "I just said that. Nobody listens to me...") Then when we FINALLY got home, I headed straight for my room and went to bed, even though it was like 6:30-7:30... So that's a day in my life, or at least when we're traveling (which we do a lot, my dad doesn't like being cooped up in the house, but apparently in a car...... hmmm....)
My upper right arm aches, lower left back, inner right thigh are sore from the rock skipping. I haven't been really creative lately. I wasn't really inspired by the beach, since I go there quite a bit. But I've been in this kind of mood. I don't feel like doing anything. I'm not doing much on the internet except playing games. Not really doing homework (it's not really very important and there's not much at all, and I believe I have all A's right now, so I don't care right now) and I keep forgetting stuff. I get lost in my thoughts alot, and I just listen to music all day, do something on my computer, and watch a bit of TV now and then. On Saturday, and found really good to just stand outside, listening to music with the wind blowing and cats that stay near me that I can pet (I love cats for that. They seem to sense when you're down and comfort you). I'm not really depressed, I know what that feels like. It's weird, this morning I felt this way, then I was like in heaven yet still felt like this (kinda like how I feel now with my heart lifted) My friends can figure out right off the bat why I felt this way (Brittni knows, for sure). Then school was over, and my mood went back down again. I'm getting like depressed as I write this. I think I'll stop now. Oh, and I have like 3 or 4 poems that are just waiting for me to finish. It just comes in my head and I put it down. I think My Shadow is as good as it could get (lol, wrote it all on the bus. The bus seems to be the best place to write poems, even if a former classmate from Russia is trying to figure out what you're doing, like a journal or a note to name a few)
posted by Megan at 8:52 PM
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My family seems to never listen to me. My mom would rather listen to my brother rambling on, than to what I need help with (mostly homework). My dad zones out a lot, especially when hes watching tv. He just doesn't hear me, period. My brother is 21, yet he doesn't drink and is in the "good crowd" (i just came up with that) and he really isn't interested in what I have to say or want to say. He is the opposite of dark (opposite of me) hes not interested in this one awesome metal band, or a rock that looks like a skull. I now my dad was in the "bad crowd" when he was younger and he smoked in highschool (oh, he's 51-52 by the way), but he quit when my mom was pregnant with my brother. So the only person I can kind of talk to in my family is my dad. If he's lost in his mind, then it's to my mom (who's all goody-goody). I just feel so lost.
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