I Feel...

I feel invisible
Can no one see my pain?
Can no one see me
Dying in the rain?

I feel so insecure
I want people to stop
All their talking behind my back
Why can’t they just see all
The knowledge they lack?
It hurts me so much
And they just laugh.

I feel broken
Life is so cruel
I want it to end.
Let’s see how happy people take it,
When they find they have a traitor
As a close friend.

I feel lost
What is the meaning of life?
Is it positive or negative?
What if I take this sharp knife,
And cut into my skin?

I feel… angry
I don’t understand why life has to be
So straight forward.
A routine is what they expect of me.
They want everyone to be the same
But it’s not possible, none of it is.
Everybody doesn’t get along,
There can never be peace.

5/21/05


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Megan is really emotional right now. It feels like my heart is going to burst out because of all these... thoughts and feelings surging through me. I've been thinking and writing poems almost non-stop. It's really sad...